Thursday, October 20, 2011

Journal 10/20

Today I went out to run with the intention that I would just see how long I could go before stopping. The answer is 30 minutes!!! I guess that means I'm graduated from C25K! This is amazing. After my epiphany Monday it is like a switch just got flipped. It is so hard to believe that I just started this 5 weeks ago and now I can run for 30 minutes. Also it means I have 4 weeks to increase my speed. In 30 minutes I did just under 2 miles. I know I'm slow. But that's okay. I am fine with going slow. I'll get faster as I get thinner too.

I have been really good about eating vegan lately. It just seems normal now. I will occasionally eat dairy (well . .. cheese) but I'm not too concerned about that. I don't miss meat at all and I doubt I'll ever eat it again. I splurge on cheese about once a week or so. Also, I have been doing great on the pop situation as well. I have about one or two a week. That is amazing considering how much I used to drink!!

Monday, October 17, 2011


Today is a monumental day for me. Just 5 weeks ago I started the C25K program. The first day is just 60 seconds run, 90 seconds walk for 8 reps. I was only able to complete 4. But I got back out there and tried again. And I have continued to do that all the way through this program. The day I was most dreading was week 5 day 3. It's a 5 minute warm up walk, a 20 minute run and a 5 minute cool down walk. I didn't think it was possible. Even last week when I did week 5 day 2 (two 8 minute runs with a 5 minute walk in between) I struggled and didn't think I was ready for the 20 minute run. Well let me just tell you that I was wrong. I should not have sold myself short. Today I ran 20 minutes. No walking. No stopping. I had turned the app off on my phone because I didn't want to tell myself that I was going to do that. I had the jog tracker app on and it told me every 2 minutes how long I'd run. I walked for the first 4 minutes and then started to run (well it's very slow so I'm not sure you can call it that!). Every two minutes I told myself good job and I kept on. Once I had done 8 minutes I decided to go for 10. Once I hit 10 I decided to push myself to 12. Once I did 12 I decided to go to 14 and so on. Truth be told I could have actually run more than 20. I felt pretty good. I felt strong. I concentrated on my breathing and kept my pace slow. I could care less how fast I do it. I just am proud that I can do it. This is what I needed to keep going. Now I know that it's possible. And at this weight!!! Honestly if I can do this anyone can. I am still 80ish pounds overweight and I just ran 20 minutes. Next month is the 5K and I am feeling so good about that now! I'm going to be able to run the whole thing!!

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Journal 10/12

Yesterday I didn't work out. I worked out hard all weekend and Monday I had a hard and disappointing run so I felt like I needed a rest day. Well it paid off because today I tried week 5 day 1 again and I did it!! For me I don't think I need to take every other day off but it never fails that when I work hard three days in a row I need one off. I don't think that's bad. One day off per three working out is not bad!!! It's just once or twice a week average. I did my run in the neighborhood again. It was tough but I felt really good. I felt like I might die when I was done but I think that means I worked hard enough! It was 31 minutes and 2.1 miles so that's not a bad pace either!! Especially since 16 minutes were walking and 15 minutes were running. Although I don't think my running is much faster than my walking at this point!! Oh well. I am not concerned about my speed at this point. It's hard enough to carry 250 pounds around. I will get faster as I get thinner I'm sure.

I posted something on Facebook yesterday about feeling guilty about wanting to take a rest day and someone (skinny lady) posted that I should just go out and try to run for at least 10 minutes. I wanted to laugh. Does she not realize that I am just now up to 5 minute runs?! I'd like to see her strap 150 pounds to herself and run 10 minutes. I'm not sure why but it really rubbed me the wrong way. I know she just doesn't get it because she's never been 250 pounds but it still stung a bit. Five weeks ago I could barely do a minute and now I'm running 5 minutes. It's an accomplishment I'm proud of. And at this pace in another 5 weeks I'll be doing 25 minutes. That's kind of the point of this program.

My plan is to try day 2 of week 5 tomorrow. If I can't do it then I'll try again Friday. I am just fine with week 5 taking two weeks instead of just one. I have heard that's pretty common. Plus I  need to make sure I can do it before moving on. After week 6 it's all long runs. I'll get there. I know I will.

The conclusion I've come to is that I want to run. I want to be a runner. I signed up to run a half marathon on June 2nd. The focus has shifted for me. In the beginning it was about losing 100 pounds. Now it's all about running that half marathon. The weight will come off in the process and I'll just get faster as I get thinner. I no longer want the focus to be the weight loss. Don't get me wrong I'm THRILLED to see the weight come off. But as long as I've been going on this weight loss roller coaster I've had the weight as the goal. It feels good to have something else be my focus. I can't always control the fluctuations that my body does when it comes to weight but I can control getting out there to run.  It's free and I'm in complete control of that. The weight loss is a side effect to the goal I'm really working towards. This is also something I can keep doing. There will always be another race to train for. Another challenge to tackle. I can do this for the rest of my life. It's not finite like losing weight and dieting is. With this I think I can keep this off long term.

I have been doing really well on my food. I am still tracking on and I feel like it is helping me stay accountable. I know that I don't want to log stuff that is going to be really bad. So I just don't eat it. I have been almost entirely vegan as well. Also, I have only had like 2 sodas in the last 10 days. That is huge for me!!! I am also drinking lots and lots of water.

All of these things combined hopefully will make for a great weigh in tomorrow morning. I think this is the most successful 10 day period I've had since I started. I feel like I'm finally on a good stretch. I am totally killing this thing and I couldn't be happier!!!!

Monday, October 10, 2011

Journal 10/9 and 10/10

Yesterday (Sunday) was great. Love and I worked out on the treadmill in her dad's exercise room in his apartment again. Since I ran on Saturday I just wanted to walk. I set the time for 35 minutes and a speed of 3.5, which is 17 min/mile.  I plugged along and then the last 5 minutes I put the incline up to 3 to give myself a little extra challenge. I was drenched when I quit. So much for an easy day!! Oh well. It felt good.

Today I decided to do week 5 day 1 of C25K.  We all 5 went out to a park nearby to do it o the track they have there. I started off running with the girls but they surpassed me quickly! Week 5 day 1 is a 5 minute warm up walk, 5 minute run, 3 minute walk, 5 minute run, 3 minute walk, 5 minute run and then a 5 minute cool down walk. I did it (slowly) up to 2 minutes of the third run. I just couldn't breathe anymore! I am really disappointed in myself. All I can do though is to go back out there and try it again. Day 2 is different than day 1 so I'm going to try to do day 1 again until I can do it before moving on. 

I've been dreading week 5 for a while now and this is why. It really is going to require a lot more stamina. That will just take time I suppose. I am totally fine with repeating days until I can complete the runs. No matter how long that takes. The goal is to be able to run a 5K. Not walk it. I know I can walk it. I don't want to set a time limit on myself for it. I just want to be able to do it. That being said, I am registered for a 5K on Thanksgiving day. It is in 5 1/2 weeks. I've only been at this about 4 weeks and I've really improved so I absolutely think it's possible. 

I have been pretty good on my food lately. I've cheated and had dairy here and there but I think I'm about 80% vegan on a bad day and 100% vegan on a good day. And they're mostly good days. I have also been better about drinking a lot more water. Plus I've only had one pop in the last week or so. That is a huge improvement!!! Oh and I haven't had meat in over 2 months. I have no desire to ever eat it again. It just doesn't appeal to me. I have also started tracking my calories through a sparkpeople app on my phone. That has been really helpful. I'm averaging about 1300-1500 calories a day. 

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Journal 10/8/11


We are visiting my love's family in Arkansas this weekend. Her dad has a gym in his apartment building so we took advantage and went to run on the treadmill this morning when we got up. It was my first time doing my run on a treadmill but it went well. It was my final run of week 4. It was also my first run with my pretty new shoes!! It was great. The new shoes help a lot. My toes didn't have the same  problem that they've had before. I did get a half size bigger than normal and I think that really helped. I finished this time which is good. Those 5 minute runs still kick my butt. It's not my legs that bug me. It is the breathing I think. It'll just take time I guess. I was getting a pain in my right side just under my rib cage. Week 5 consists of three 5 minute runs on day 1. Then a couple 5 minute runs alternated with 8 minute runs on day 2. Then day 3 is a 20 minute run. We'll see how that goes. If I have to repeat week 5 I will. From what I've heard it's not that uncommon. I just will keep doing it until I can do it. I WILL finish this program. I WILL be able to run a 5k. I've just decided.

Since we're in Arkansas we're not eating as well as normal. Oh well it's just a weekend. We will go back to normal when we get home tomorrow. I just can't come down here and not eat fried pickles. It's a must. It's just a couple times a year so I'll not beat myself up about it.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

October 3 Weigh In (and Measure)

So it was time again for our once every 10 days or so weigh in and this time it was measure time too since it is now October. Sorry it's taken a while to get this posted but I've been having issues with my handy dandy little chart.  Here's how I did. . .

For the month of Septmember I'm down 7.7 lbs and 11.75 inches!!

Not too shabby I must say!! Since I weighed last time (Sept 23rd) I'm only down 1.2 lbs but a loss is a loss in my book and the inches is what really matters anyhow. I'm so glad I'm taking my measurements because otherwise I would be very discouraged. Most of those inches came from my waist and hips too so that's why my pants are feeling a bit looser! If I keep losing inches like this I'll be buying new pants by this time next month I think!

The breakdown of inches lost is:

0.5 in Bust
1 in Neck (wow!)
1 1/2 in Arm
4 1/2 in Waist (no wonder my pants are loose!)
0.25 in Calf
2 in Hips
2 in Thighs

Not too bad for a month! I am anxious to see what it is at the beginning of November. I really hope by then I'll have to actually wear a smaller size instead of where I am now where the size I'm currently in is really loose but I'm not quite ready for the next size down.

Journal Oct 5, 2011

I did week 4 day 2 of the C25K program. This consisted of a 5 minute warm up, 3 minute run, 90 second walk, 5 minute run, 2 1/2 minute walk, 3 minute run, 90 second walk, 5 minute run and then a 5 minute cool down. The same thing all three days this week. Next week is when things get changed up! I decided to do my run on the streets in the neighborhood this time since I was getting really bored with doing it in the backyard. (Yes I've done all past runs in my back yard! You should see the path I've beaten down!) I have to say that it is a lot harder. First of all, I think the pavement is harder on your legs and feet, secondly there are hills!! I was on an uphill climb when I started my first 5 minute run and I finished it but it really took it out of me! I still did the whole thing except the last 45 seconds of the last 5 minute run. I was just so out of breath and getting side splints. This is the first time that's happened. I started getting it pretty early into my last run but I tried to be really mindful of my breathing and work through it but I just couldn't. Plus it was another uphill portion so I had to walk the last little bit. Oh well. I'm not going to beat myself up about it.

I did really well food-wise today. I had one of the home made granola bars that my love makes that are about 175 calories and have 6 gm protein on my way home from work because I knew I'd need something to fuel me if I was going to run first thing. For lunch I had vegan meatballs with red sauce and rotini, steamed broccoli and some sliced tomato. Yum! Dinner was at my parents house. Veggie fajitas with no cheese and vegan sour cream. Spanish rice on the side. I'd only had about 900 calories all day so before bed while Love and I watched TV I had a little piece of this vegan chocolate cake she made. It was 300ish calories but so worth it!! Oh and I've been vegan exclusively for weeks now. :)

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Journal 10/2/11

I did week 4 day 1 today. Not only did I do week 4 day 1 today but I did it after working 13 hours thankyouverymuch! I have to say that I'm pretty darned impressed with myself. The run itself was not too bad. The first 3 minute run was a breeze and the first 5 minute run wasn't that bad at all. I felt like I could still take a deep breath while still running even. HUGE improvement. The second 3 minute also not too bad. The second 5 minute run was tough. I had to do a lot of pep talking to myself to get through it. That being said - I did it. Now I feel all kinds of accomplished and stuff. Yay me. The last two runs I was having a lot of pain on my right foot at the base of my second toe. About my second toes -they're crazy long. I think I might need a half size bigger shoes. Or toe shortening surgery. I think the shoes might be easier. It's all coming at a good time because this coming weekend the wife and I are going to her home town for a wedding and her dad has offered to buy us running shoes since he's been so impressed with our endeavor. I'm pretty excited. It'll be nice to get a nice pair of running shoes that are fit by someone knowledgeable about such things. It'll be good. Especially going into week 5!!!!

I've started a new medication a couple weeks ago and it's been messing with my appetite. As in I don't really have much of one. Not a bad problem to have really but I also know that because I'm working out I need to fuel my body to be able to do that. So I've been eating every 4 hours to make sure I'm keeping my energy and blood sugar up. I'm not being too picky about what I'm eating but I've been eating a lot of high fiber foods and foods with high protein. Also staying vegan.

Tomorrow is not only weigh day but also monthly measurement day. The second measurements we've done. I'm anxious to see how many inches I've lost because I'm definitely seeing a difference in my clothes. Even though I'm less than 10 lbs down. Well I WAS less than 10 lbs down. We'll see what tomorrow says . . .

October Goals

I have already shared my goals for the next 12 months so I wanted to break it down into monthly goals as well. Since it is now October I'll share them here now. At the beginning of November I'll share how I did on my October goals and make new ones for November. You get the idea!

  1. No more than 1 soda a day.
  2. Run at least 3 times every single week all month.
  3. Stay vegan 80-90% of the time
  4. Lose 10 more pounds
  5. Bring lunch to work every time
  6. Register all of us all for the Thanksgiving 5K

A Week in Review

Okay so it's been more than a week since I posted. I wanted to. I really did but life kept getting in my way! So here's what I've been up to since then . . .

Last week I completed week 2 of C25K and it was lovely. No problem. Then Sunday night at work I fell and hurt my back. To be honest the first thing I thought about was that it was going to derail my running plan!!  It's amazing that just two weeks in and I find myself looking forward to it!

I left work early on Monday morning because it kept hurting more and more and I went to the ER that the occupational health nurse told me to go to. I was there for a little over an hour and all that got accomplished was that a doc who thought I was drug seeking and didn't even properly examine me gave me scripts for V.icodin, Ibuprofen and a muscle relaxer. Grrr. I didn't fill them. I called the occupational health nurse back and she told me to go to one of their clinics that handles all of their worker's comp. cases. That doc was very helpful and did x-rays to make sure I hadn't broken anything before he gave me a course of steroids and a muscle relaxer. I also saw my wonderful and fabulous chiropractor A that day and she helped me a lot too. Other than seeing three doctors on Monday I did nothing but lie on the couch and rest and sleep. Sitting was painful and I was drugged. Tuesday was more lying around and babying my back.

Wednesday I felt so much better. Those meds, the chiro and two days of rest really helped a ton. I even decided to go attempt week 3 day 1. I promised myself that I could quit if I needed to but I didn't need to.  I felt good. Thursday I went back to be adjusted again and I felt even better. Friday when I did day 2 I noticed that I had a lot of pain in my SI joint (pelvis-hip region) on my left side so I FB'd my chiro and asked for advice. Ice, rest, stretch. Did that and felt up to another run (week 3 day 3) Saturday before work!! It feels so good to be through 3 weeks of this program. I'm a third of the way there!! I'm feeling ready for week 4 (jog 3 min/ walk 90 sec/ jog 5 min/ walk 2 1/2 min  x2) since it's not a huge jump from the 1 1/2 and 3 minute jogs I've been doing in week three but then there is the dreaded week 5. After that it gets harder and harder every week. Like a lot harder. Here's how it looks:

Week 5 day 1:    jog 5 min/ walk 3 min/ jog 5 min/ walk 3 min/ jog 5 min
Week 5 day 2:    jog 8 min/ walk 5 min/ jog 8 min
Week 5 day 3:    jog 20 min


So you're telling me that I will go from being a person who's never run more than 8 minutes at once in my life and then suddenly I'll be able to jog 20 minutes straight? Talk about taking the training wheels off! I have been reading through blogs where people like me document their C25K process and they all are about where I am right now on week 3 and they are all able to do it. I guess I will just have to have faith. I think this is where the idea that running is about 40% physical and 60% mental.

I'll be sure to document it here how that all goes! I'm not expecting anything too drastic on week 4 since it's not a huge jump. I found this week that I wasn't even getting to where I needed to look to see how much time was left until 2 minutes so I think the jump to 5 minutes won't be huge. I hope I'm right.

Another thing I've got rolling around in my head is that when my aunt Sandy (who was a runner and inspired me to reach this goal) died 3 1/2 years ago I swore to run a marathon by the time I was 35. Well here I am 4 months into my 35th year and I'm running 3 minutes. So I've altered it a bit to run a half marathon at 35. There is a half marathon here in town that's pretty big around here and it just happens to be about 2 weeks before I turn 36. So if I train for 8 months I think I might be able to do it. So that's my big goal that I'm not ready to shout from the roof tops just yet. I'll keep it close for a while. I need a couple 5k and maybe a 10 k under my belt before I'll feel like it's really going to happen but that's the goal I'm reaching for.